i feel like i might be coming apart? my discipline is gone. i haven’t been eating well or sleeping well or getting the things done i need to. my US history course starts in march and i SO don’t want to deal with it. i just feel scattered. maybe it is a boy thing. maybe it is a money thing. maybe it is my mother hasn’t bought a plane ticket to visit me. maybe it is general malaise related to a lack of fitness. i don’t like it. what do i do about it?