i feel like i might be coming apart?  my discipline is gone.  i haven’t been eating well or sleeping well or getting the things done i need to.  my US history course starts in march and i SO don’t want to deal with it.  i just feel scattered.  maybe it is a boy thing. maybe it is a money thing.  maybe it is my mother hasn’t bought a plane ticket to visit me.  maybe it is general malaise related to a lack of fitness.  i don’t like it. what do i do about it?