just now it hit me.  i want someone to miss me.  it seems i am just too difficult, even being awesome, and people get to a point and they just don’t miss me anymore.  i had this text message that andreas sent me in oct or nov that said “i can’t wait to see you!”  i kept it and looked at it when i wanted to smile.  it made me so happy.  it was exactly what i wanted to hear.  of course, when he broke up with me i deleted it.  but i sure liked it.  and just now i realized that is the emotion that i am missing in being single.  someone who misses me.  i want to be missed.