i need to not become frustrated with relationship issues. i think that means i need to say things early. of course, finding a time to express worrisome things is awkward. andreas and i tried talking about issues/feelings specifically on sunday afternoons. i am not sure that is a good way of doing it. the health topic needs to be addressed though. the response i received when i brought it up before was very “medical definition”. it felt like i was a student or patient who doesn’t know anything about diabetes. but i do. and there is no reason not to try. i have made it VERY CLEAR that i do not want to deal with unmanaged health issues. but i don’t want to do an ultimatum. but i am not sure what the middle ground is. i got an enthusiastic text message about fitness, but there was coffee cake involved ;> i’d like to do things together. our strange sleep schedule differences make things hard. but we should try, right?
it still feels incredibly comfortable though (a reason i want to work out the health thing for sure!). i just don’t worry with Kyle. i express myself. i ask my questions and share my concerns. i tell him how much i care about him and i am not afraid to do so. he is been VERY good about sharing his feelings. much less staring at me when i know there is something going on in his head. and lots of sex. lots. it’s all very nice. it’s so nice to feel so, just, nice.