which we obviously need. and i wanted to start with something positive.
my therapist tells me i should go on lots of dates. i need to do this to: weed out the “losers” and expose myself to the most people to figure out what i am looking for in a partner. i don’t know that i have the energy for this, but what choice do i have? (do NOT give me platitudes that i am so awesome i will easily find someone. i KNOW i am awesome, but that doesn’t mean my matching awesome partner is out there for me to find). and really, i don’t even know what type of person i want to date! i really liked patrick’s nerdiness, but then he generally only conversed about a single topic for months! (first scooters, then computers). she also wants me to take the reference to being “sex-positive” out of my profile, because “men are base”. ugh. (i don’t doubt her on that)
my therapist also suggests trying weight watchers to lose the weight i gained when i started back on nights. it makes me sad, but nothing is working and i feel yucky and my clothing doesn’t fit. i am still gorgeous, but that is mostly an attitude thing. which it always has been. i can’t afford to replace my wardrobe.
US history class fairly entertaining. too much work though. i’ll know more after my first test.
i need a nap. i am going to be out all night tonight. i have a fantastic new dress. life goes on, i know that.
i am going to take out the shower doors in my bathrooms and put in curtains. i am excited about the plan! being landed-gentry is fun.